"Sensations"
Sweetness drips from my nectar
A dew upon your parched lips
A stroke across my back
A moan deep from the abyss of my soul

A caress over my hipbone,
Towards the softness of my inner thighs
A primal urge to own you
To touch you’re being, to understand your needs

Hand to your heart beating
Your rhythm to life
A vibration towards what may come
Lack of discipline, a temptation for the now

"Untitled"
work in progress
Muddy mess
Cluttering the cleanliness of the temple
Disallowing the plagued,
Opening your arms to the prestige

Turning the temple into a far away place
The local street corners because a sanctuary
The crimanals preaching the gospel
While he or she, whatever diety laughs

Praying for a solution, reconsilation dawns
Fuck this, moving on
My body, now my temple

"Broken Heart, Broken Soul"
Thick, dark red drips freely into your hand
Emotion pours from my soul outta my gapping wound
Broken yet somehow managing
Living each day with the knowledge
The knowledge that I was rejected by my soulmate

Bloody pools swim before me
No longer from my heart, but my wrist
Swirling from a vivid crimson to a lush pink
Cleansing away the infection caused by pain

"Life"
My Life has no meaning
I'm in a world of my own
Has life been mine?
Life what's the meaning?

"Friends"
I need to cry I miss my friends
Lend me your shoulder
Give me your hand
I'm not where I belong
But I know where I am

"Die"
Take that plunge into death
Life is the only thing you have left
You lost everything to life's petty discrete
More and more you want to leave
With what you believe
You die right then and there
With only what you bare
You go to heaven, knowing hell
Bye and Bye, I say farewell

"Untitled"
My world was stroke by God's hand
I cry right here, where I stand
Why did you leave me?
I was left with this pain
Tears cascade down my face
They are tears that can be wiped away
My heart however is stained with death
My memories of you are all I have left

"Night"
After everyone's gone to sleep
Her life awakens
This is her time to dream
She sneaks out, away from reason
And meets her beau, who takes her away
The time stops in this dark world
There is no reason why, no reason for
She lives in the moment, and parts with her soul
She leaves her innocence behind, and all forgot
For now she gets a touch of heaven
Which she invites to seek a place for tonight
As dawn comes, they say good-bye
It was another life, another time

"You have it all"
You are rich
I am poor
I have some
You have more
You are designer
I am discount
You have followers
I have friends
You have popularity
I have personality
You are fake
I am real

"After High School"
Our expectations are lower
Our hopes aren't that high
My dreams were once wonderful
But now that make me cry
We've lost our hope
And found room for regret

"Born/Died"
Take me towards the light
Away from this dark world
Take me home, to where I belong
This is the beginning, to my end
So much is changing
Now that I am alive, or am I dead?

"Self-made Prison"
Loneliness has swallowed me up and won't let go
I'm depressed and stuck in my own turmoil
I'm grasping at the walls that are closing me in
I'm stuck in my self-made prison
I've locked myself in and lost the key
I can't escape from my own misery
I've been here to long and can no longer think
I need someone to open this door and let me free
Please let me out! I am ready to leave!
I've learned my lessons, and lived in agony

"Compliments"
Compliments
Those things that make you feel good
They were the ones that made me smile and laugh
They didn't make me perfect
'Your eyes are like wallpaper'
I would have never thought that
'Your tummy is nice'
That did me wonders
My tummy isn't flat
'Your legs are a mile long'
Finally someone else noticed that

"Our Hero"
Dark skies
A fallen angel
Heaven skipped a heart beat tonight
The failed world is silent for a moment
It mourns its loss
Flowers instantly dead
Birds fall in flight
A panic sweeps the world
Hysteria
A helpless cry escaped from the lips of millions
Our hero died

"School Age America"
Neglect
Manifesting sin
A loaded armory full of weapons
No place to begin
Left out
Basically broken
Ridiculed to no end
Wasn't apart of the cool group
The shy kid that wouldn't join in
Death looking in the face
You wish you could explain why
The outsider
The Mafia
Unlimited excuses to use
Media having a ball
Could this happen here?
Or would you know at all?

"Rape"
Siring pain
Blinding tears
I ask why
No one hears
Clothing torn
Innocence gone
Close my eyes
Try to forget
Open my eyes
Still lying there
Feel unclean
Now I know fear

"Untitled"
Live the laughter Shun the pain
Its 2:30 in the morning
Just me and my ramblings in the dark
Except for the dim humming of electronics -- it's silent
Blonde to red, red to blond
No satisfaction guaranteed
My breast are too big
Or that's what I think
It's 2:34 a.m.
Why can't I sleep?
I need to sweep the floor
Tomorrow or actually today
2:40
I think I'll turn off the light
And try to sleep

"Untitled"
Sky so dark up above
Pieces of crystal scattered through out the night
Blurring vision
Tears escape my eyes
So cool against my face in the night air
The smell is so intoxicating I feel lightheaded
Then I remember why I left the warmth of the inside
It was you
I haven't seen that face in so many years
I felt trapped by not knowing what to say
A doors slams in the distance, Wait, it wasn't distant
I feel your presence and say Hi

"Secret"
No-one understands
They never ask me why
They assume its because I am naive and innocent
I'm not I just know the harsh reality of it
That's why I am cynical
That's why I don't trust
No-one knows my secret
No-one wants to know my secret
For those few who did ask I told them a lie
I didn't want to face my own secret-- my own hidden truth

"She's Gone"
Pink water, and stained porcelain
A limp body, a broken soul
She is gone now
She left for a better place
This cruel world didn't want her
And now heaven won't take her
She is gone now
She is away, far away
No body can even reach her
Because she didn't want to stay

"The Death of Society"
Push me off the ledge please
I'm already crazy
Give me that pistol, or that razor
Because you know you don't want to save me

I'm the product of my society
Which is based on death
You never tried to help me
You were all I had left

So the final ending is my doing
Don't worry, the bloods not on your hands
You'll never even know why I died
You never tried to understand

"See You Again"
Falling out of bed
Feeling half way dead
Don't want to see you again

Losing to myself
Passing off as somebody else
Praying you won't want to see me again

Reliving last night
Trying not to start a fight
Wondering if you will see me again

"A Description of Death"
Death has started knocking
And she is at my door
She keeps on knocking
Now she is in, and starts taking her toll

She disturbs my head
Makes my breath go week
She destroys my feeling
And eventually will kill me

My blood turns cold
My body becomes stiff
My heart is no longer pounding
This is how I live

"Cat"
Lazy days under the summer sun
Just sitting by watching the flowers grow
Hearing the cricket's chirp at night
Smelling the scent of breakfast, lunch, and dinner
Tasting the Popsicle drops on the porch left unnoticed
Feeling the breeze ruffle my hair
While sitting perched in the window

"Me"
I'm the look of children to come
I'm the look of those who have been

"A Life to Remember"
She had strength
And she fought
But no matter what
Her life was lost
She left us behind
With nothing of her forgot

"Tonight"
A black negligee against my moon lit skin
White silk sheets intertwined around our bodies
We are so close
We don't know where I end and you begin
Your hand cups my breast
You feel my heart beating
My lips brush yours slowly
That delicate touch send shivers through me
You touch me more
But its not enough
I crave you, my senses fill with you
Its only you I can think of
Rocking back and forth
Touching you, you touching me
Blinding vision, the world explodes
Curl up next to you and sleep

"In the Mirror"
In the mirror I see
I see a women
I see firm breast
I see a birthmark on my ankle

In the mirror I see
I see eyes that shine so bright
I see laugh lines around those eyes
I see strong shoulders

In the mirror I see
I see curves that could be a little straighter
I see a few pounds that need to be lost
I see scars

In the mirror I see
I see a self conscious women
I see a person who hides
I see a person who is scared
In the mirror I see me

"Kiss"
Can we kiss as if our first may be our last
As if the world exploded and fell at our feet
Can you hold me with such an intensity, and ferocity
As if I were your last hope and dream

Can you kiss me with a tenderness
As if time stopped and it were just you and me
Can you love me with such emotion
As if I open you up to a whole different world
With just one kiss?

"Mental Rape"
You left me defiled
You raped my mind
You took my spirit
You left me there to cry

I was only a child
But now I am a women
And yet I still fear you
I still fear what you did

You took my trust
You took my since of security
Now I live with the memories
Now I suffer from your actions

I flinch when I am touched
I shy away from intimacy
I shy away from love
I distance myself from friends

My life is scarred from your actions
My whole being is shattered
I will always be afraid
I can no longer trust

"Saturday Night Ritual"
3:43 A.M
Everyone is leaving
We go our separate ways
4:30 A.M we meet again
The light above the diner is blinking
The coffee isn't that good
But its our ritual
I order decafe and light a cigarette
You order a milkshake always strawberry
We sit in silence, then we both speak
'No you go ahead'
It always happens like this
Waitress comes over with that fake smile
We talk about our lives now--they are so different from long ago
You have your job, I have my school
You grab my hand on the table and drink your milkshake.
I smoke another cigarette and sip coffee
We then go our separate ways

"Under our tree"
It was you and me
We were both teenagers that summer night
We were a fumbling mess-
We wanted so hard to be able to touch each other
You were worried about the pain I might have
I was worried about meeting your expectations
I didn't know then that you didn't have any
Our bodies were rain slicked from the summer storm that just passed
We wanted to get close, but close wasn't enough
We were so passionate back then
We craved one another
We were young and alive

"False Care"
Superficial smiles
That ask, "How are you?"
You don't care, you don't know my name

I walk past blank stares that don't see me
They see just another figure passing them on there way


Were in such a rush, to get to no particular place
We lost touch with what reality truly is


I want to make an impact,
But how do I when you don't care?


I'm just another face in the crowd to you
I'm that whats-her-name that you mention during your daily gossip


I'm just another blurred vision that you run past to get to your destination
Your destination- no where

"Mold Me"
Mass commercialism
Teach communism is bad
Brittany Spears is my role-model

I'm dying to be thin, because everyone knows thin is in
I cringe at the thought of ice cream---
Real ice cream, not that fake fat-free shit


I wear Abercrombie and Finch,
The Gap was so yesterday
And Doc Martin, lets not mention him


Oh my God, I got a zit
The world is ending as we know it
I can't go out with the quarterback now


My teeth aren't straight, only a teeny bit crooked
Let my parents pay thousands to fix my flaw
They can afford it, they have to pay for my love


My breast aren't as big as I want them
I will get implants -- maybe a C, even a D
But thats of course when I am 17


Mold me and shape me
Let me be what you want me to be

"Myth"
eternal love
glamour trapped in endless tales
love beyond boundaries
reality not inspired
wake up and no one there
love conquered but not by all
hopeless
damned some may say
truth of love is in all
broken and battered
ragged around the edges
no pretty package sold here
no satisfaction guaranteed

"History"
We first heard the news
Went on with our lives
Then it begins to sunk in
We watch the T.V. in wonder
"Is it true? Can this really be"
We realize it is
How naive we were and still are
The monstrosity of this event
The monstrosity of our naiveness
Fear! Anger! Madness!
Complete hysteria
Why we ask
Why me? Why us? Why this? Why now?
Tears hit the ground
realization

"Country Storm"
Blue velvet skies wave to me
From a distance they say good-bye
Sitting in my room, watching from my window
The whole world provokes my senses
It looks so open, endless, and wild
The smell of a storm blows through the air
Lightning strikes in the distance
And it's faint glow on the horizon
The birds cry out in the open fields
And the crackling of the air surrounds the house
But it still seems so silent and still
It seems as if time froze
No movement on the roads, no noises from the barn
It feels like there is something hidden, unseen, and unknown
Waiting and lurking in the blue velvet sky

"Love"
Passion, expression
A tradition unspoken
Madness paralleled with sanity
The illusion of confusion with in
Disturbed condition
Pain and affliction
Potent enough to wash out the hurt
But when broken, wounds will never heal
Chaotic and orderly
Insanity not locked away
Burning sensation kept hidden
Exposed with out knowing
Vulnerability open for trust
An addiction to the unknown

"Moment"
undiluted pain
ask me how I feel
I feel torn, open to infection
never can I explain
never can I tell
crushing emotion, rocks me deep
a memory, a moment still in my eyes
the young had no realization
but I knew, and so did you
I stood in that room, not prepared
I couldn't cry then
I try now, but never do these tears escape
They settle on the rim of exposure
Never wanting to let go or realize
Your gone