I'm tired of being the girl taken for granted
I'm tired of being the girl often forgotten
Breath a little deeper
Scream a little louder
I'm tired of being the girl you call upon for help
I'm tired of being of being the girl who you leave out
Breath a little deeper
Scream a little louder
I'm tired of being the girl who you use
I'm tired of being the girl often confused
Breath a little deeper
Scream a little louder
I'm going to be the girl thats okay
I'm going to be the girl that'll be happy one day

"Mourning"
My hand fit snuggly between yours
Fingers intertwined to lock us together
Not letting go
Sweet lingering kisses
Eyes closed to slits to open to your knowing eyes
Revealing myself with out a word spoke
For you knew
Curled into you, snug to your body
Dreams are known at your side
A whisper to wake me
Remembering its mourning

"Life as we live it"
Bound to our madness
Not letting go of the constent nonsense
Ringings, buzzes, an assualt of my ears
No escaping, forever waking
Won't know sleep in the chaotic life we live
Maintianing the constent mundane
Never changing, longing for something more
More to never come
This is it, our acceptence
Life as we know it, life as we live

"Surrogate Fuck"
Looming over me
Legs open for your entrence
I'm your surrogate fuck
I know it's not me you see
You long for her and I know this
Yet I lay here waiting patiently:
For you to come
For you to realize its me you want
I give into my bodies aches
A need, nothing more
I want you to want me
Even if its as her
You kiss me
I coy smile across my lips
I know your secret
One you don't even realize
Your looking for her
But I'll be your surrogate fuck

"Earth Mother"
Beloved mother
She is the carrier of all my sin
She wipes the tears from my children
Only to smile that sweet smile
All knowing but never giving her secrets away
She holds me in my slumber
Her whispers awake me from my sleep
A kiss, a soul-filled kiss fills my lungs
She gives me the air I need
The ground to hold my feet
An everything amongst in all
Our earth mother she is
A constent in our distress
A warm hand laid upon our hearts
Calling us back home in times we forget

"Growth"
Once a girl, now a women
Hips widened, mind grew
Balancing act inside of me
Not wanting to let go
No choice, but to move on
Growing up
Letting go of the girl i once knew
Seeing her in my memories
Wondering how she has been
Looking forward to the woman i will become
Becoming her when I wasn't looking

I stand here alone
Everyones walked away
Looking for myself
Not knowing who I am

Breathing, inhale deep
Expell the feelings of despair
Not knowing what to do
Needing to start somewhere

Is that somewhere here
Questions only loom
Answers never found

Searching up and down
Forgetting to look with in myself
Absolution, the realization can't be found

A continuation, growing with my life
Ever changing, ever present
Re-evolving, sometime moving 2 steps back

Tentative steps up and down this ladder of life
Stumbling through, not knowing anything permanent
Knowing what is now