Watchers
Sitting amongst the angels.
Looking below to the terrestrial plane.
Wondering through the spectrum of time.
Disolving and fading away as memories wash over.
Remembering a time when blood flowed through these veins.
No wings to bare witness to my existence.
Just another form on the great earth.
Recalling a mere span of time when living was worth dying for.
But only during that short time I had truelly fullfilled my destiny.
I was to be a watcher-
A guidance amongst plighted souls who faced their extinction.
I consoled broken hearts that ate away at it's carrier.
I helped those who faced the harshest of realities.
I had fallen though.
I denied my destiny after watching fate take hold of too many..
I damned it all to hell as I soothed my last charge.
I watched him be taken by a short-term life that was issued to him.
The greater good never could prevail, as neither did evil.
There was just issues of life given and taken by the gods that be.
We were all destined.
The higher beings, such as myself, as well as the earth-bound ones.
Falling from the grace that I was given, I was to become a recluse.
Amongst other fallen watchers I was placed in the stars to sit and watch.
We were no longer the privelaged. We were to wither away watching as eternity was to pass by.

Description
If you look for beauty
Do not look at me
Look at the girl beside me, ahead of me, behind me

For if you look for beauty in me
You will never find it

You will find something more
You will find me

I'm more then one word could encompass

I am the sum of all my parts
I am greater, I'm less then
However, never equal to

With Out Armor
Growing up, growing old
Changing faces of time
Whithered a bit around the edges
Scars tracing paths along my soft planes

Shedding my armor
Standing before you
Vulnerability easily seen

Looking past my imperfections
Seeing me as I am

Touching, oh so softly, the nectar of myself
Seeing life spring before you
Tasting the lush flavors which I so willingly offered

Hand to skin, finding a milky, rich texture
Almost angelic in its nature

Embedding a map of my body in your mind
Wondering delicately over every contour

Losing yourself into me
Wishing somehow we fused together
Remaining parts of each other

Knowing that tomorrow will come
Another day, another battle
Armor on again

Console me now
Take away this pain
Turn time around
Change my destiny
Make the past stop haunting
Look me in the eyes
Say that "it will be okay"
Don't deny me my hurt
The only thing I can hold on to

Cold, White Room
Cold
Looking back to the day that could of changed it all
Knowing damn well I would've ended up here all the same
The nurse talking in a soothing but numb voice

She's seen me before, not me but someone just like me
She thinks I'm disgusting, irresponsible
Another burden
She doesn't know me

He's no where to be seen
He said he loved me, is he here?
No one to answer
Burning - the needle piercing my skin
No longer can feel
Surgical steel, sterile gloves

Feeling like some specimen for dissection
Not feeling the pain, except the crushing feeling upon my chest

Reminding myself this is best
This was my only choice, its the right one
Is it the right one?

Not looking back.

Room number 6
Dimly lit
Sitting on the edge of reason
Chain smoking to calm the frayed nerves
Not wanting to look at you
Wishing for an escape
Realizing there is none
Except for the seedy diner a block away
Wishing that you made a different choice
The bruise already forming in the shape of distorted hand

He sits watching, almost ready to pounce again
Looking for a reason

Looking at the time, 3:54
Get up, startled by the old ac kicking on
Walk slowly
Painfully slow to the bathroom
Wash away the blood, the tears, the sweat

Eyes piercing through her as she slowly re enters
Curling into bed, not wanting to be touched
Realizing it will happen again
Not wanting it to happen again

Walking amidst the crowd
Head down, buried in a far away place
Trying to look for a destination
No where can be found
Eyes darting along signs
Looking for an answer that will never appear
Patience losing to insanity
Frantically hoping for some solution
Looking to the world outside, but never with in

Hidden behind those eyes you see
Is a girl who wants to be seen
She lurks in the shadow waiting for her light to shine
Patiently hoping that soon she will find hope
Fading as the days pass on
Deminishing to a fraction of her former self
Illusions move on, no longer do they dilute her mind
Crippled by regret, the last remainder of her life
Slowing falling into the shadow,

Beyond Beauty

I feel lost in my beauty
Never seeing what you have seen

Escaping from my boundaries
Holding a divide between me and you

Look beyond your infatuation
See me from the inside out

Lost before you found imperfection
Disappeared before your eyes