Possible
Sitting behind my mystery
Waiting patiently for arrival
Memories pass by
Deluding myself into complacement
Cornering my emotions, helping them to subside

Carnal, being a fighter
Are you seeing past this?
Turning away
Pleasantly escaping
No longer us
Just ignoring the possibilities

emotions at midnight
Sitting here
Hoping the water on my wrist turns to blood
Tears turning a warm bathe into a salty mixture of my emotions
Waiting
Wondering who I am
Shaking, pain seeping out of me.

Ramblings From Some Night
Blister in the sky
Distorting images
Confusing all who pass by
The sky is now blemished
Once was beautiful, now inflicted
Infectious views
No longer picture perfect
Never perfect, just is

Fortress
Sitting here, just me
My thoughts, craddled away for now
Just me here
Openning up
Accepting
Breaking free for the moment
Forgetting, forgiving, just living
For now, momentarily
Closed up
Walls in place
Secure, protected
Somehow left unbroken

Exotic
Distant music
Candlelight, and a few drinks
Hips waving a delightful greeting
Now, in the now, forgetting all that breaks us
Swimming in emotion, not grasping it yet
Not wanting to understand, just here
Craving, yearning, never enough
Hand to your hand
Drawing you in
Head to head
Staring, not breaking the silence
Hips waving a delightful greeting

Past, Present, Future
Losing myself into you
Fading away into us
Hand to your heart
Soul fusion
Emotion, unwavering fear
Never knowing what I am getting
Just taking what you give
Never expecting, just here
Except hurt
Illusions never there
Waiting, never willing to move forward
Living in my past, pain
Never shrowding my reality

3:24 AM, June 9, 2003
Pain
Affliction
Addiction
Feeling the same
Burning vision
Confused, Insane
Pardon the past
Never forgetting
Constent
Fear, still aftraid
Cry-------tears
Away
Run
Alive