Questions loom over us
I sit blindly staring out the window
Hopeing maybe you will forget that I'm not the women you so desperately want
Or is it maybe need?
I turn my head back
You see something you have never seen
My own fear
Turning silently you stare at me
You touched something that was better left unsaid
No accepting it
Ignoring it as it possed more questions between us

As daylight breaks
My thoughts drift back toward a pain once held
Holding me back from lingering in your arms
One so casually draped across my bare stomach
Almost as if to keep me here, anchored at your side
I skae the that thoughts of a past that now drifts by
Tighter your grip becomes
Though asleep you seem
Do you feel my ache inside?
Prying from your arms
Readjust to turn towards you
Sleepy eyes awaken
A smile plays at the corner of your lips
Beckoning me back to a reality I so fondly know

The panic of an alarm awakens me
Straight out of bed I rise
Lookin for the devious noise that rocked the cradle of my slumber
Slide on yesterday's semi-clean clothes
Snug to my hip the jeans curve
Finding keys and shoes
Out the door I disappear
Against the brightness of the sun my eyes balk
Once inside my car:
the visor down
the engine turns
The gas pedal forced beneath my foot
Moments pass by with out a noise
Realization: the radio tuned
Full blast the sounds escape
Followed by my own vocal addition
No worrying, just going

High standerds set me apart byt they gradually broke down for you. You told me you would never use me, but thats what you seem to do best. I keep deluding myself into thinking you care, holding back, as not to get hurt. Knowing damn well I'm only here for you in the moment.