I seem a mess these days
Lost in my own comings and goings, refusing to accept the definate-ness of this life.
Or so atleast it seems -- definate, that is
I realize it won't change unless I put that into motion.
I'm not sure what "that" is, but I know something has to change.
This life is not what it was supposed to be.
You know what I mean-
That whole dream of what you would become, this was definately not it!

I really should change things; move on
I guess improve is more what I meant
Something has got to be better then this, anything!